Last weekend I hit a real angry stage. I was pissed that this happened to me, I was mad that we just got out of debt and built a little savings and now have too use up all our savings and go into debt to get a car. I was mad that I was feeling depressed and not myself. I was mad that I was (and still am) afraid to go to the gym which was where I was headed that day not to mention the accident happened right in front to the gym and I am not ready to face that yet. I am mad that this guy was so stupid as to do this too me. I was mad that that day is all I thought about. I was mad that my body hurt and it hurt for anyone to touch me or hug me or comfort me. I was mad that I have anxiety wheneverI get in the car. I was mad that I didn’t even do anything wrong and have to suffer the consquences of someone elses stupidity. GRRRRRRRRRRRR!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
It has been almost three weeks since the accident. My body is beginning to feel normal again and my mind is dwelling less and less on the events of that day. I feel like I am finally coming out of the fog. I finally feel like life will be normal. The bruises are beginning to fade, the headaches are stopping, the neck pain has subsided, the anxiety is less and my mind is quieting down. I feel like I am going to be okay as time gets between me and the accident .
I still don’t have a car. We are taking our time. We are blessed to have a great mechanic that has loaned us a car until he finds us a van. He is scouting out a van for us which is really nice. Buying a used car is scarey when you don’t know what to look for. Our mechanic, Tim, will check over the car before we even get near it. He is looking at auctions, leased and rental cars that are on sale. He buys and sells cars thru’ his Auto garage business as a side business and really knows his stuff. Tim is a God send for sure. He isn’t even charging us for the rental!!!! Although I was able to get the insurance to pay for two weeks. They will only pay up until we got the settlement on my van. We got the check on Friday so the insurance will not pay for the rental now. I offered to bring the rental back to Tim and he said to keep it until he finds us a van. I told him we couldn’t afford to keep it and he said it is ‘no charge’. WOW you just don’t find that now a days do you? It helps him and us to have the rental. It gives him the time to search for a van knowing that we have something to drive in the meantime. So it is all good. I can’t wait to get a new (to us) van it will bring closure to this mess.
mercedes (aka Nikkie)
What an awesome guy.
Yeah, you went through a very traumatic experience, both physically and mentally, and it’s natural that both your body and mind will take a while to recover from that. If you’re feeling so much better in only three weeks I’d say you’re doing good :)
What a great guy!
I don’t blame you one bit for feeling that way. It’s rough when there seems to be a light at the end of the tunnel and you get slamdunked that way. Hopefully, you can start digging back to having a savings again.
In the meantime – rant and rave all you want around here – we’ve got your back!
Wow, that really is a good friend.
I’m glad things are starting to come together for you. I hope you luck out with a really good deal on a van..:)
Yeah…..anger ain’t much good, and neither is debt after getting out of it. But more importantly than anything else is that your health is good and getting better!